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Its my time

Its my time
I have started to grow again
I refuse to be a lapdog
I am not to be used or ignored
I have my friends and my family
I don’t know where I’m going
To be honest, I don’t care

Coming out of a month of uncertainty
Time feels like it is now moving again
I can feel myself release the old life
Saying goodbye to that part of myself
I like this feeling of peace

The tears have stopped
Loneliness is still there but I think it always will
Feeling free in myself
Something I wouldn’t trade with anyone

My life has begun again
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random old poetry

I don’t want to feel again
I’m tired of love
It hurts to be lonely

I don’t ask a lot
Just someone to love
Someone to care for me

What am I saying?
No one wants me.
I’m just the friend everyone likes
Loves something I’ve experienced
But never recaptured.

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I feel so alone
As though no ones with me
Alone
It’s such a harsh word to hear
To feel like this hurts
To feel like I am the only person in the world
That cares

A heart growing cold
Slowly dieing
Eyes loosing their sparkle
Thoughts and feeling fading to oblivion
You becoming no more
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I am so confused.  I have split up with my boyfriend and he's now in the anger mode, which in terms of getting on with life its a good thing, but now he's being a complete arse asking for everything he's ever given me during the 3 years we've been together.  People I have asked have all said that i should only give back the items that actually belong to him and keep the rest, and that i have done.  He's called me every name under the sun even on the idea that I'm having an affair with an ex boyfriend, which yes I am talking to my ex but thats just it, I haven't seen the bloke in 4 years!  Saying that I do still have feelings for him, I don't think they ever went away.  He's always been someone I can trust, I don't want to loose him from my life.
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Intelligent footballers ?!

 WHO SAID FOOTBALLERS ARE NOT INTELLIGENT

 My parents have always been there for me ever since I was about 7. "
 David Beckham

"I would not be bothered if we lost every game as long as we won the
 league."
 Mark Viduka

 "Alex Ferguson is the best manager I've ever had at this level. Well
 he's the only manager I've actually had at this level. But he's the
 best manager I've ever had."
 David Beckham

 "If you don't believe you can win there is no point in getting out of
 bed at the end of the day."
 Neville Southall

 "I've had 14 bookings this season 8 of which were my fault but 7 of
 which were disputable."
 Paul Gascoigne

 "I've never wanted to leave. I'm here for the rest of my life and
 hopefully after that as well."
 Alan Shearer

 "I'd like to play for an Italian club like Barcelona "
 Mark Draper

 "You've got to believe that you're going to win and I believe we'll
 win the World Cup until the final whistle blows and we're knocked
 out."
 Peter Shilton

 "I faxed a transfer request to the club at the beginning of the week
 but let me state that I don't want to leave Leicester "
 Stan Collymore

 "I was watching the Blackburn game on TV on Sunday when it flashed on
 the screen that George (Ndah) had scored in the first minute
 at Birmingham . My first reaction was to ring him up. Then I remembered
 he was out there playing."
 Ade Akinbiyi

 "Without being too harsh on David Beckham he cost us the match."
 Ian Wright

 "I'm as happy as I can be - but I have been happier."
 Ugo Ehiogu

 " Leeds is a great club and it's been my home for years even though I
 live in Middlesborough."
 Jonathan Woodgate

 "I can see the carrot at the end of the tunnel."
 Stuart Pearce

 "I took a whack on my left ankle but something told me it was my
right."
 Lee Hendrie

 "I couldn't settle in Italy - it was like living in a foreign
country."
 Ian Rush

 " Germany are a very difficult team to play...they had 11
 internationals out there today."
 Steve Lomas

 "I always used to put my right boot on first and then obviously my
right
sock."
 Barry Venison

 "I definitely want Brooklyn to be christened but I don't know into
 what religion yet."
 David Beckham

 "The Brazilians were South American and the Ukrainians will be more
 European."
 Phil Neville

 "All that remains is for a few dots and commas to be crossed."
 Mitchell Thomas

 "One accusation you can't throw at me is that I've always done my
best."
 Alan Shearer

 "I'd rather play in front of a full house than an empty crowd."
 Johnny Giles

 "Sometimes in football you have to score goals."
 Thierry Henry